Why am I at BCS?

One of this tasks I hoped to accomplish while on Christmas break was to articulate to myself why I was at BCS. I noticed myself getting distracted and wanted to get re-foucused. Should be easy, right? After all, part of of the application process was to say why you wanted to go to that school in the first place. I remember writing how I wished to be like a sponge that would soak up as much water as possible and then be wrung out in whatever way the Lord wished. That desire still remains, but at times I felt like I had become a hard rock, not letting any water come through. In my journal I wrote this, not even a month after classes began:

"I feel like I'm holding a basket under an apple tree, trying to catch all the falling fruit before they hit the ground. But instead of gravity gently pulling the fruit down, its like someone is up there throwing each apple as hard as they can..."

I wrote that at 2:00 AM, the only time I could find to journal something down.

All that to say, that after going through a semester at BCS, and learning the lessons I did, and going though the different minor trials that were set in place, I think I finally understand what the bottom of all this learning is about. At the bottom of it all is Jesus.

You will say, "Of course!" And your right. But sadly, though I knew that with my head, my heart and been distracted. So this is why I am at BCS, why I am learning awesome theology, and writing, and history (and dare I say it, math!).

"By God's grace, I am at Bethlehem College and Seminary so that I may learn, and fall more deeply in love with Jesus so that I may better make much of him and his glory and be better equipped to serve those he puts in my life."